A Longing

There was a time when I lived inside structures and sought fulfillment through doing, achieving and living up to external expectation.

I was a high-achieving engineer and product designer (think Electrolux and IKEA) but it didn’t provide the happiness I longed for. Something important was missing.

The deeper longing for true fulfillment, inner peace and grace, could not be met there.

The turns of life, a burn out, meeting death, changed me and who I thought I had to be.

I turned within through yoga and self-reflection.

The longing became clearer and clearer.

To come home to truth.

To authenticity, inner clarity and peace.

Through the challenges of relationships, through intuitive initiations and mysterious empowerments, through the awakening of Kundalini and spontaneous and natural maturation of consciousness, glimpses of spiritual truth, dissolution and transcendence became profound paradigm shifting experiences that changed me forever.

Knowing yourself as existence has many names; enlightenment, Self-realization, knowing God, God realization, illumination, but from my learnings, I’d like to claim that it is not the realization itself that is the most important thing, albeit the most profound and transformative, nor is it the end of the path, but to integrate this new view, and energy and grace flowing through you, wisely and maturely is more important than anything.

Looking back I can see that my spiritual journey led me through many yogic landscapes:
the devotion of Bhakti yoga, the discipline of Ashtanga yoga, mindfulness, meditation and Self-inquiry of Gyan yoga, and eventually I found myself given a role as a Shaktipat Acharya within a nondual lineage and spiritual community.

That experience, while sincere in its offering, became a mirror, showing me the edges of hierarchy and limiting structure, the subtleties of spiritual bypassing and distorted teachings, and the truth of my own inner authority.

That 7 year long chapter clarified my inner truth and awakened my integrity - deep within my cells! It also deepened my discernment and affirmed that spiritual pursuit needs to go hand in hand with personal growth and values such as kindness, compassion, empathy, respect and honor.

It also showed me that the flow of grace within me and everyone, can be trusted.

Now, intimately attuned to inner devotion and Grace, I serve humanity in the most authentic way I can. Through mentorship, guidance, alignment, activation, attunement.

So that you return to knowing the source of life within (and around) you as your very nature.

When this clarity dawns and establishes within you, your divine presence spread and inspire others like wildfire.

The wildfire of an awakened Heart.

Actions you take aligned with this inner clarity, your truth, will help change the world.

A Vision of Something New

Flowing Grace has been with me for many years.

It first came as a name, a feeling of truth, something that could never change being true.

For a time, I set it aside, as I stepped into other roles, other containers, in service of a teacher and community that eventually revealed themselves to be powerful initiators of growth in disguise.

Through that experience, I was shown what integrity means, to me.

I was shown what I will never compromise in the name of hierarchy.

And I was brought back to the one thing I can trust completely, the living presence of Grace.

Now, Flowing Grace have returned (2024), a space holder for my service, a container for spiritual unfolding rooted in devotion, truth and embodiment.

It is part of a new way, one that does not replicate the structures of the old.

A way where power is not built on titles or image, but flows bare and honestly from presence itself.

A seed vision is germinating of something where Flowing grace and myself will be part.

Something non-hierarchical, non-patriarchal…

A sacred network where awakened beings in service or expression, can move together, not in comparison or control,
but in truth and reciprocity. In simplicity. In Grace.

It is still becoming, and I will share more when it blooms.

Until then, I continue to serve.
Through transmission, through presence, through devotion.

So that you may remember what you are, and feel it in your body, and reflect it into your life.